its raining on me... and im not surprise

there comes the moment in our life where we think that this is all to much. it feels like the world is against us and all.  we all experience this in our mid-twenties years. lately i have been asking my self. what is wrong with me? is this the direction that i want to take? what the hell am i doing here? these questions hunted me and drive to my countless sleepless night.


when i think back, before the time i decided to come here at saudi.i was a nurse at a 35 beds capacity hospital, i was doing fine and my family keeps telling me i don't need to go abroad because they can still feed me.  all i need to do is stay with my mom at home. for years after graduation and passing the NLE i was doing fine, no complaints or what so ever and contented with my life.  then i one day i decided that i need to get out, i need to earn more and live independently. away from my comfort zone. then one morning i wake and find my self here in saudi. working in a polyclinic. i dont know if i ever regret my decision for months now i still have the same routine and am so bored and sick of it. but i have to be firm in my decision. its my 10th  month now. i hope i can survive another 13  more months to go. 




another quarter life crisis attack.. sigh!