Time goes by a lot slower when you're missing someone.

happy 26th to my parents

yesterday july 31st my parents celebrates their 26th year together. even they spent almost 3/4 of their marriage apart, when my father come home every 9 months, they never fail to fill-in the lost time apart, they are the sweetest couple ever. my father it seems like every he serenade my mom.. and my mother always take good care if my dad. i am have the best parents ever, they sacrifice a lot just to give us good life and send us to a good school. i am so proud of them. i am so blessed to have them in my life and i love them so much. they are the sweetest.

 even in YM they cant be separated

 @airport before my take off

my proud parents

inseparable

 davao trip...

 i think this ones taken during my dad's 49th bday

 so inlove after 26 years

 inseparable

 @ our farm

cute are they?

this one dedicated for mothers day.. hahah!

and this is their love song..JUST THE WAY YOU ARE- billy joel

SWEETTTT.... =) i love my NANAY AND TATAY..

its raining on me... and im not surprise

there comes the moment in our life where we think that this is all to much. it feels like the world is against us and all.  we all experience this in our mid-twenties years. lately i have been asking my self. what is wrong with me? is this the direction that i want to take? what the hell am i doing here? these questions hunted me and drive to my countless sleepless night.


when i think back, before the time i decided to come here at saudi.i was a nurse at a 35 beds capacity hospital, i was doing fine and my family keeps telling me i don't need to go abroad because they can still feed me.  all i need to do is stay with my mom at home. for years after graduation and passing the NLE i was doing fine, no complaints or what so ever and contented with my life.  then i one day i decided that i need to get out, i need to earn more and live independently. away from my comfort zone. then one morning i wake and find my self here in saudi. working in a polyclinic. i dont know if i ever regret my decision for months now i still have the same routine and am so bored and sick of it. but i have to be firm in my decision. its my 10th  month now. i hope i can survive another 13  more months to go. 




another quarter life crisis attack.. sigh!

Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.

we come to the point of our life where we need to pause, stop and think, evaluate our life. lately i have been asking this question to my self. what direction am i taking? am i doing the good things? did i made a good decision? which drives me to sleepless nights. before i have plans, a 5 year goal. but now i am not certain anymore. i miss my old life being spontaneous all the time. do what i want to do, but as i get older i change my perspective in life. i dunno, im 25 but still i dont really know who i am. what i really want. and what direction do i have to take in my life. im blue right now, its been like this for a month now. i am totally confuse with my self. i hope i can overcome this . i will take each step everyday and hopefully be back on track soon.  


i think am just going through a quarter- life crisis right now.

AMY WINEHOUSE

AMY WINEHOUSE, i don't really know anything about this artist. but i sure do love the song REHAB. i first found out about her death via twitter. then everyone is talking about it i heard she died due to drug abuse buy am not that sure so i research her in Google. and here's what i learn about her.

Amy Jade Winehouse (14 September 1983 – 23 July 2011) was an english singer-songwriter known for her powerful contralto vocals and her eclectic mix of musical genres including r n b, soul and jazz.

Winehouse was credited as an influence in the rise in popularity of female musicians and soul music, and also for revitalising British music. Winehouse's distinctive style made her a muse for fashion designers such as karl lagerfield. Winehouse's problems with drug and alcohol abuse, violence, and her self-destructive behaviours were regular tabloid news from 2007 until her death. She and her former husband, Blake Fielder-Civil, were plagued by legal troubles that left him serving prison time. In 2008, Winehouse faced a series of health complications that threatened both her career and her life.

Winehouse died at the age of 27 on 23 July 2011, at her home in London; police have said that the cause of her death was "as yet unexplained".

 

just like any legends that die from drug abuse, KURT COBAIN, JIMMY HENDRIX, JAY RETARD. drugs and music go together some artist/ musician use it to bring out the best of them. to get to the heart of rock in roll as what they say, because its just the ugly truth in the industries, for sure their are a lot of artist that we may not know for now using drugs up until they die. bt i think there are also ways to bring out the best of an artist other than to use drugs. or else all of our artist will die in the end. (i dont really know what im talking about. ill just edit this when my head is clear.)

here is a raw music video of rehab. acoustic version..

 but i love this version more..the original music video of rehab..

R.I.P AMY.. you will  always be remembered. your voice will live on..

gossip girl..

GOSSIP GIRL.. the reason why i haven't been updating my journal for like 2 days now. im so hooked with this series. i know its not the latest and the hottest tv show now. but what can i say i just discovered it. I just finish season 1 and planning to watch season 2 soon. will i do hope it will be as interesting as their first season. the characters that they have are very interesting, and so with the fashion and the plot of the story right in heart of NYC. you can hate them or love them. here are some famous line quoted by the characters and some photos attached..

GOSSIP GIRL HERSELF:

And who am I? That's one secret I'll never tell ... You know you love me. XOXO, Gossip Girl

"A wise woman once said that every morning when you wake up you say a little prayer. After all, you never know what your day may hold."

"Nothing says January like a brand new Cold War."

"So if you want peace, always be prepared for war."

"But our most dangerous enemies are the ones we never knew we had."

"Napoleon once said that secrets travel fast in Paris. But Gossip Girl travels faster. Bisou bisou."

-BLAIR WALDORF

"I'm the best of the best. I'm Blair Waldorf."

"I don't  love you anymore. But it takes more than even you to destroy a Blair Waldorf."

-SERENA van der WOODSON

"Being alone is just what I need. No boys, no bars, just a bottle of sun block and a dozen of the best beach reads. I needed to make a choice and I choose me."

--CHUCK BASS

"Let's catch up. Take our clothes off. Stare at each other."

--NATE ARCHEBALD

CHUCK: You're a good friend.
Nate: One of us has to be.

Nate: You must really be hurting.
Chuck: How can you tell?
Nate: You're not drinking.

THOSE ARE THE MAIN CHARACTERS FROM GOSSIP THEY ON SEASON 5 NOW, SO.. I GUESS SEE YOU SOON SEASON 2??? 

xoxo,

a day with SASA..

today i have made my self useful, 90% of my time i spent helping my co-worker named SASA, on her clinic. since she had a lot of patients (as always) and also learning some procedures coz its my  turn have a duty this friday. my whole afternoon went well. tired but happy. at least now i get to divert my attention, not to think a lot. about the problems?, that i have..it is also my waya to bond with SASA. were not that close before. to wrap it all its a fun and fulling duty, maybe i should do it again tomorrow?

hmmm..maybe not! hahah! kidding!

a group picture after a long day of duty.. happy.

"Once in a while you meet someone and soon you discover the two of you are truly something to each other, you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship is truly meant to be."

good night,

xoxo